going to the dealership soon. wish me luck.
i just want a car...any car, so i can get my license soon.

grey's anatomy tonight!
:)

I bought two canvas tonight. Now when I get the urge to paint I can :) 
woop!

Axl likes to hide under the bedding in his tank now. 
So thats why I thought I lost him before.

I'm in a good mood tonight after a relieving // good conversation.
I like being happy...and I'm hoping it gets even better.
::thinks positive::

And then I went to dinner with the fam & besty which is always amusing.
We actually went to Nocera's so yea...I'll be back there tomorrow night.
My days off are over. 
I'm working wednesday - saturday...and I believe I have sunday off.

Every week that I watch Miami Ink it makes me to want another tattoo...
or rather get the ones I have now re-touched and take care of them better.
boo to fading.

It's finally here. I'm going to New Hampshire :)
I'm so excited to see Melissa, Jay, & Nathan!!
Unfortunately we'll only be there until tomorrow, but sometime in August we'll be going back. 

I can't believe how early it is!!

Once we get back I'm chillin w/ mike again. It shall be fun....haha well yea, alcohol is involved.
Umm...I talked to Joe online lastnight for a while. Would've called him about that ice cream invite, but it got rainy and scary out. We  have to hang out soon though.

Well...it's time to go now!!
adios.

Gotta love waking up with a headache. Also having not so wonderful dramatic dreams. It's all making me feel crappy today. I wish I could just call into work, relax in bed for a few more hours, and then lay down in Brian's arms. But reality has biten me in my cute behind and made me realize that isnt going to happen - unless I want to be bitched at by my manager and possibly fired.
As you may tell, I'm not in a good mood. I actually have the urge to cry for no apparent reason.

I really hope today gets better.
I think I'm going to take a long warm shower. That sounds nice.
Then i'm going to call a taxi, say I need it for 1:20, and call work lying that my taxi is taking forever and I'll be late. Thats not the first time I've done that...I know, its bad. Thats what happens when you hate your job I guess.

I cant wait until tomorrow. I'm super excited. I just want to open presents and see everyone open my presents to them. I did good this year too...everyone got stuff they either wanted or I knew they'd like. I have to put Brian's stocking together tonight and then hide it so he wont go through it until tomorrow. I'm nervous about giving him his big gift...i'm oober scared that he'll hate it or that it wont be good enough. ::gulps::

I gave the girls at work a bunch of random little things in a gift box yesterday. little did they know i didnt pay for any of it. It was stuff my mom had in a huge bag that she collected throughout the years. And they all loved what they got. I'm so good.

I started a painting of my brother and wanted to have it done in time for christmas. It was going to be an extra gift to my parents. It wont be done and the whole thing is just bothering me. I was painting lastnight and got really frustrated and cried. It was supposed to be something special for them and i couldnt even make it look right. I might just throw it away and forget about the whole thing. My painting skills arent good enough yet to do things like that and i hate it. Its the one thing i wish i could do too.

Tonight will be a relaxing night. no more wrapping or worrying about gifts for people. We're going to Nana Tracey's to visit her and 'the in-laws', then going home to lounge around and watch 'Jersey Girl'. Once its bed time the stocking and big gift will come out from hiding and into the living room.

Tomorrow will be different. Our first Christmas on our own...second Christmas together :o) Going to my parents house to eat and exchange gifts, to Brian's mom's, and then to his dads. Busy day and lots of presents! Woo hoo!!

Since I wont be updating anytime soon....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Its been a while and i feel like tons has happened. i think its because there was alot of venting, fighting, talking, crying, and making up since my last entry. I'm working on my flaws i guess you could call them. I wasnt the happiest person and they werent the happiest people so things had to change. I'm trying, they're trying....and we're suceeding. Its like a breath of fresh air has blown through my life. People go through a rough patch and that was ours. its gone now and its going to stay that way. i promise.

Surprisingly work hasnt been too bad lately. I can actually have a conversation with my co-workers and the days go by quicker. My boss is still a fake c**t though. yup.

We have a tree! Its a fake one, but thats ok. It makes the apartment look like christmas...and i love christmas. I'm like a little kid, its great. I cant wait to give everyone the presents i got them. Brian and I got eachother 'big' gifts. I'm definitly dying to know what it is...and i'm dying for him to see what it is.  The next 12 days have to pass by faster.

Brian's 21st birthday was yesterday...and he had a beer!! ::awe face:: yea, it was odd, but now he can buy me alcohol :oP  He is most likely going to a bar tomorrow night with one of his freinds too and  having a couple drinks. No fair. Who wants to play with me tomorrow night while I sit at home wishing i was 21 and at a bar?? call me up.

I have a few new pictures up on Myspace. I have way too much fun with Brian's digital camera and photoshop. According to him the pictures I took of myself look depressing and emo. nice.

k, I shall go now. adios.

Its been a while and I feel like tons have happened since i last updated. I guess because there was alot of venting, fighting, talking, crying, and making up since my last entry. I'm working on my flaws i guess you could call them. I wasnt a completely happy person for a while and neither were they so things had to change. Since all of that mess happened it all seems so much better. I'm trying, we're trying...and we're succeeding. Its like a breath of fresh air has blown through my life. People go through hard times and that was ours. Its gone now and it'll stay that way. I promise.

Surprisingly work hasnt been too bad lately. The days seem to go by quicker and I can actually have a conversation with my co-workers. amazing isnt it? I think so. hopefully it stays this way. But wait...my boss is still a fake c**t  :o) Gotta love older women who are on diets and going through menopause. yup.

We have a tree!! Its a fake one, but thats ok. It makes the apartment look like Christmas...and I love Christmas. I'm like a little kid, its great. So, I'm very excited about giving everyone the gifts I got them. Brian and I got eachother 'big' gifts. Definitely dying to know what it is...and dying for him to see what it is. These next 12 days need to pass by quick. The anticipation is killing me.

Brian turned 21 yesterday....and had a beer! ::awe face::  yea, it was odd. but now he can buy me alcohol :oP  He might be going to a bar with his friend tomorrow night too and have a couple drinks. not fair...I want to be 21 and go to a bar. Who wants play with me tomorrow night while I sit at home wishing i was at a bar?? Call me up.

I have a couple new pictures up on MySpace if anyone cares. I have way too much fun with Brians digital camera and photoshop. According to him the pictures i took of my self look depressing and emo. nice.

ok time to get going. adios.

I hate my job and my boss with a passion. Anyone know of a decent paying job with decent people? I need to leave that place...as soon as possible. If I dont I'm going to have a mental breakdown. Its hell.

So anyway... I had to see my eye doctor today. My eyes have gotten worse. fun stuff. I'm on a mission to find new glasses though.

This is my second night spending hours here at my parents house. I have a life, I really do.

I miss my handsome...I feel like I havent seen him in days. Lastnight after work he went out with the boys and came home late & tonight he is closing which means I wont see him until midnight-ish :o(  We'll have all day tomorrow together though so that makes me happy.

Friday...I have work. I think we're the only company on the planet to have to work the day after thanksgiving! Er!

I'm kinda excited about Saturday. My moms side of the fam. is getting together. Thats something we havent done in a while. Kinda bummed that Brian cant come because everyone else will have their companions with them. Did I just say companion? wow. So Nicole is coming as my date and then from there we're going to hang out. It shall be fun. The digital camera is coming with. I want to get a picture of all of the cousins. Since I have the fam thing I'm not sure if we'll be able to visit Andrea like we planned. So that stinks.

K, nnough of this babble. I'm gonna go now. Ciao.

I have a Myspace account :o)